As I suspected: avoiding wheat has not solved all my problems. Not even all my health problems. That would've been too easy, right?
Some people believe that each of us has one essential myth that rules our lives. For some it is the quest, like in Lord of the Rings or Star Wars. Me? I'm the girl from The Princess and the Pea. It's official: I am a real princess! I swear I could feel that pea through twenty mattresses and twenty eider-down beds.
What assaults have been visited upon my delicate person? The weather changed by more than 10 degrees Celsius between one day and the next, when we went from a muggy heat wave to nice fresh weather after the storm. Such temperature swings have proven to be a consistent stress factor.
Then I stayed out until midnight on Friday after a full work week to see my sister perform in a play. She was brilliant! Girl, I am so proud of you!! :-D And I truly did intend leave work early so that I could go home and take a nap. But one of my staff called in sick two days in a row, and things started stacking up, and the assistant manager had to take her kid to an orthodontist appointment... You get the picture.
I pushed through it all and thought I did OK.
I woke up on Saturday morning with the invisible ankle weights on. However, after a hard work week I felt the need to get out of my house and enjoy life. I was only a little tempted to spend all day on the couch. Ken and I went down to the lake where we enjoyed a wonderful walk by the water's edge.
We saw cool boats and interesting birds and cute dogs. There was a wedding party photo shoot in one of the parks. We stopped to look in the public art gallery and watched a glassblower at work in the open studio. We went into a shop by the docks crammed with marine paraphernalia for boat owners. There were deck scrubbers and big yellow rain-hats, Canadian flags and skull-and-cross-bones flags, sailor's blue-and-white striped jerseys imported from France, and dozens of different types of rope on huge spools.
We picked our way through an antique store that looked like a giant, dusty garage sale. Ken's theory was that it was set up to encourage browsers to break things, because that was the only way the owner would convince anyone to pay for the chipped china plates and grubby wineglasses.
We walked around for hours. I lost track of time and forgot that I was tired. I did wonder why there were so many people out in shorts and T-shirts while I was bundled up in a sweater, hat, and windbreaker. I figured they were so desperate for summer that they were all indulging in wishful dressing. Actually by then I was probably already starting to run a fever, which explains why I was the only one feeling chilly.
I do not regret that walk, or the play, or staying out late, or living my life to enjoy it. Sometimes I wonder if I'll be half-dead before my doctor figures out that there's something seriously wrong with me. If I might die young then I want to enjoy everything now. If I might become progressively more disabled, I'm going to get out and enjoy my outdoor walks, and my fun adventures while I can still have them. I mean, I'm not utterly convinced that I'm doomed, but it's starting to seem like it's within the realm of possibility. I'd feel awfully stupid if I devoted all of my energy to the office and then found out later that I had no energy left for anything else.
Hope for the best and prepare for the worst; isn't that what they say?
So there you are. I was feverish and exhausted yesterday. I cancelled my in-person plans with my girlfriend and we had a phone chat instead. This morning I felt even worse, but now I'm starting to feel better. Not sure if I'll be back to work tomorrow. We'll see what happens overnight.
I have been avoiding wheat all along. I haven't been tempted to try it again. Life's tricky enough without taking another risk. When I'm feeling well enough I'm going to make my re-wheat trial a conscious choice, in case it does make me feel like crap again. I'm going to get a really delicious cupcake. I can think of a specific one I want. I know exactly where I'm going to go to get it, and I plan on enjoying every bite. I'll definitely let you know how it goes, when I'm bold enough to give it a try.